The Hour Of The Wolf

“Many things in life are beautiful and yet at their heart they are so simple.”

“Complexity and beauty have little in common with one another. Complexity can be admired but true beauty can’t be created through technical ingenuity.” – Wolfsbane

Recently, a smart friend made me face up to the fact that sometimes practicality limits our capacity to do good. We’re all individual people, we all get tired and it’s better to concentrate on the few things we can do. It’s a hard thing for me to accept even though I know my friend is right; we all want to be good people and the bar for ‘good’ is set pretty high these days. We’re all scared that no one cares about the things we want in our lives. We don’t want to be the cause of our own downfall. It’s difficult to let go in order to focus and achieve.

I worry about a lot of things to do with empathy and caring. I worry that focusing on the friendships that I am building instead of reaching out to strangers is not the way to approach things if I want to be part of change. I worry that my decision to keep away from certain situations has become a negative form of protectionism, instead of a positive one. I worry that when I try to go deeper with the people I want to form a community with I mess it up.

Meanwhile-meanwhile, I have also taken down the last of the Christmas decorations and I am going to take down my calendars, because I have a deep superstition about these things. I am the type of person who always has to have the calendar changed on the first day of the month exactly anyway.

I feel that you should do things on New Year’s Day that symbolize how you want the rest of the year to go. I’ve heard you should take out any kind of garbage or trash because it symbolizes dumping all the baggage out of your life. My home is garbage free. We’ll see.